It's pretty funny how some ppl finally realized that I can be very dishonest and deceitful because I've always known that's in me (yes even wen i was a teeney weeney baby that faced d world wif a drooly smile). My question is who are they to judge me? My lies are not dere to hurt anyone and if they ever did, I neva meant to. As if those very people who labels others for being dishonest has never lied before? At least I am honest about my dishonesty, pfftt how ironic. The fact is I don't lie because I want to but yes in a very selfish sense, I do it to protect myself (and sometimes, others). Perhaps my dishonesty have hurt other people and for that I am very sorry but I only lie wen i m provoked, not that it always justifies what I have done but at least I think it's understandable. For those people who labels others for being immoral because they noe others have lied bout certain things, well open ur eyes miss or mr moral highground, life is not always linear, there is also the colour grey. I mean half of those people just fully bitch about others behind their backs while acting nice to them on the outside, ladies and gentleman, that's called deceit. Before judging someone, take a look at your own flaws first. By the way, Confucius said dat too but in complex Ancient Chinese.
Well back to my talking about my selfish ways, I must admit I am not always sorry about my lies and dishonesty because sometimes I just see it as the other person provoking me so much that I don't have a choice. I guess I need to open my eyes as well because there are always choices and the good people would make those right choices. However, the fact is I am not always a good person and if you are, that's pretty boring but congratulations. Sometimes, it's just really hard to tell wat is right from wat is wrong or wen u r under the influence of much negative emotions, ur rationality would definitely be absent.I sound like I am excusing myself and perhaps, that is one of my motives but I feel like I am a happier person now than who I was. Let me introduce you to the old me who cared alot about how others perceived me and had this solid self-discipline on myself where I would punish myself so much for being dishonest or just doing something wrong. Over the years, I've learnt 'y the hell does it matter wat others think', if they are mot close to me, they don't even noe me so who are they to judge me. And with self-discipline, it practically all gone but dis is one thing that I learnt that I cannot survive completely without, I just need a balance. If someone is so sensitive and cautious of every mistake they make and punish themselves harshly for that, he/she will have a very tough life ahead of dem and day will just end up seeing themselves as failures.
So my fellow people who live on the same planet as me, strive to b good but acknowledge dat u r bad, very very bad. (nudge nudge)
And for u moral snobs out dere, get off ur pedestal because a completely moral person does not judge but help others out.